"accept the good"

sara took me to see "things we lost in the fire" today. i had heard good things about the performances. in general, i'm a fan of halle berry (for obvious reasons). i love benicio del toro. he was amazing in this movie. i have a love for david duchovny. the kids were super cute. yes, i did cry. i couldn't help it. if that happened to me, i would be lost.

one of the messages from the movie was "accept the good."

i don't think i do that enough. lately, i've gotten closer to some of my existing friends, gotten in touch with old friends, and started making new friends. sometimes i question why exactly people want to get to know me or stay friends with me at all. at times, i'm not a good friend at all. i've been working on it lately. myspace has helped a little. overall, i'm not the worst friend, but i'm lucky that i choose friends who are low maintainance. the ones who are high maintainance or high drama tend to fall away. the reason that people hang in there with me will probably always be a mystery, but i amazingly glad that they do. my friends and family make me who i am. i hope they know how much i appreciate their presence in my life. i know i don't tell them enough. and i don't accept that i deserve the people with whom i've been surrounded.

p.s. one of the things that i noticed about the film that was interesting was that you could actually hear the cigarette burn when benicio del toro inhaled. as a former smoker, it teased me throughout the movie. i may or may not ever smoke again, but i will always crave the act of smoking. i DO accept the fact that smoking is not good for me. i do miss it though. :)

p.p.s my friends, raeann and jermaine welcome david marshall into the world on the 23rd, 7 lbs 2 oz. dan and ginny welcomed katie. mike and susan have just brought jon home within this past week. christine and eddie are expecting any day now. my friends have been very "busy" lately. i am truly amazed by it all. i'm excited to meet them all. good good stuff.

next topic - the "coming out" conversation, still happening after 14 years